Confirmation

Another blood test today and the confirmation came this evening that the hormone level has plummeted, it is now 52.

I wasn't pleased with the way the news was delivered. It was very matter of fact and as if she was just informing me of the next steps in the process. I was told "Your hCG is low, so what we want you to do is stop the drugs"  Did she realise the news she was delivering to me?!

It wasn't a surprise. I put the phone down, took a deep breath, told Hubby who gave me a hug, and then I just got on with what I was doing. The bitter disappointment I feel is hard to describe. It's not just the loss, but how much time, emotion and effort that went into it.

132 Injections, 260 Pills, 63 Pessaries, 24 blood tests, 17 internal scans !

I won't ever regret trying, but it is a lot to put in to get nothing at the end.

Heartbreaking news

My bleeding continued, it was fairly light, but more than spotting. I rushed off to the clinic, another blood test and wait for the results. I got a call about 6pm. My hormone level hCG) has dropped to 178.

It's all over.

They will do another test on Monday to confirm, so I am not to stop the drugs just yet.

I know in my heart this is the end. The strange exhaustion I felt mid week is completely gone. It's so sad to think we came so close and beat all the odds that were against us. To get this far and then lose it. We have no embryos 'spare,' none frozen.

13 embryos, 5 without TCS, 2 survived to implantation day (day 7), one positive pregnancy test, 0 babies :-(

Scared

I've had some bleeding today, I know spotting is a sign of early pregnancy, but I don't feel this is 'spotting' it seems more than that. I called the clinic this evening and they have told me to keep an eye on it. I can come in for another beta next week, perhaps Wednesday.

Another dip in this rollercoaster ...

Beta #2 Test Day

Another blood test and another excruciating wait.

I finally got the call to say that the hormone level has more than doubled. It has gone from 99 to 220! The clinic are happy with this and do not need to see me again until my 7 week scan.  Tears of relief!!! Still a long way to go, but it seems this scare is over.