Another blood test today and the confirmation came this evening that the hormone level has plummeted, it is now 52.
I wasn't pleased with the way the news was delivered. It was very matter of fact and as if she was just informing me of the next steps in the process. I was told "Your hCG is low, so what we want you to do is stop the drugs" Did she realise the news she was delivering to me?!
It wasn't a surprise. I put the phone down, took a deep breath, told Hubby who gave me a hug, and then I just got on with what I was doing. The bitter disappointment I feel is hard to describe. It's not just the loss, but how much time, emotion and effort that went into it.
132 Injections, 260 Pills, 63 Pessaries, 24 blood tests, 17 internal scans !
I won't ever regret trying, but it is a lot to put in to get nothing at the end.
Showing posts with label Bad News. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Bad News. Show all posts
Monday, 22 October 2012
Saturday, 20 October 2012
Heartbreaking news
My bleeding continued, it was fairly light, but more than spotting. I rushed off to the clinic, another blood test and wait for the results. I got a call about 6pm. My hormone level hCG) has dropped to 178.
It's all over.
They will do another test on Monday to confirm, so I am not to stop the drugs just yet.
I know in my heart this is the end. The strange exhaustion I felt mid week is completely gone. It's so sad to think we came so close and beat all the odds that were against us. To get this far and then lose it. We have no embryos 'spare,' none frozen.
13 embryos, 5 without TCS, 2 survived to implantation day (day 7), one positive pregnancy test, 0 babies :-(
It's all over.
They will do another test on Monday to confirm, so I am not to stop the drugs just yet.
I know in my heart this is the end. The strange exhaustion I felt mid week is completely gone. It's so sad to think we came so close and beat all the odds that were against us. To get this far and then lose it. We have no embryos 'spare,' none frozen.
13 embryos, 5 without TCS, 2 survived to implantation day (day 7), one positive pregnancy test, 0 babies :-(
Thursday, 1 December 2011
Potentially huge setback
Just had a call from Karen Fordham. Looks like my biggest fear may have come true. I've waited so long for the funding, I might have waited too long.
My blood test results are back already. Nice of Karen to call so late in the day, it was 7:30 pm and she was still working!
Results were:
E2: 152 ... Fine
FSH: 6 ... Fine (needs to be less than 9)
AMH: 2 ... NOT fine, ideally should be 10
Seems this could be a potential show stopper. I feel a bit sick, just the injustice of it. Still, they haven't said no, yet. The biggest problem is that the PGD test takes months, possibly a year, so if my level is low now, it's likely to be even lower at treatment start time. There's a meeting next Tuesday evening, my case will be discussed then to see if there's anything can be done.
So now we wait a few days, feeling deflated, but trying not to give up hope.
My blood test results are back already. Nice of Karen to call so late in the day, it was 7:30 pm and she was still working!
Results were:
E2: 152 ... Fine
FSH: 6 ... Fine (needs to be less than 9)
AMH: 2 ... NOT fine, ideally should be 10
Seems this could be a potential show stopper. I feel a bit sick, just the injustice of it. Still, they haven't said no, yet. The biggest problem is that the PGD test takes months, possibly a year, so if my level is low now, it's likely to be even lower at treatment start time. There's a meeting next Tuesday evening, my case will be discussed then to see if there's anything can be done.
So now we wait a few days, feeling deflated, but trying not to give up hope.
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